A dad who suffered with postnatal depression has penned a heartbreaking letter to his baby daughter explaining why he “hated” her for the first 12 weeks of her life.
Ross Hunt, who became a dad to Isabelle 11 months ago, said he felt “nothing” when she was born and quickly began to resent her for “ruining” his life.
Despite absorbing himself into the father role by changing Isabelle’s nappies, dressing her and even doing baby massage, Ross said his mental ill-health got the better of him.
But now, as Isabelle is about to turn one, Ross, from Abercarn, has decided to write a moving letter to Isabelle’s “future self” about his experiences of postnatal depression.
Addressing his daughter, Ross’ letter says: “This might not sound very nice, but for the first 12 or so weeks after you was born, I didn’t like you very much.
“Some of the following things are going to be hard to read, but it’s very important that I’m honest with you, even if that honesty is difficult to hear.
“But there were times when I hated you. I regretted having you, and thought that my life had been ruined by you being born. I know that’s hard to read, but trust me, it’s incredibly hard to write too.
“I’ll be honest and tell you that the baby stage of your life is one that at times I’ve found very hard. I still occasionally struggle these days, and I’m by no means a perfect dad. I wish all of this came easy to me, but for whatever reason, it just doesn’t.”